I'm Alive

Wow what a week.  I survived surgery without any major complications.  Surgery went well.  The morning of surgery was a little rough.  I had the worst headache, I guess the tumor had to give me a goodbye present.   My head was even noticeably swollen.  They gave me some pain medicine before surgery which did nothing.  Reality hit that morning as I laid in pre-opp, as they prepped me for surgery all I could do is just pray I would wake up to raise my beautiful children, I pictured their graduations, weddings, grandchildren, and me not being there. I was very nervous and scared I wouldn't wake up.  Looking my family in the face wondering if I will wake or possibly have a stroke, was very scary.  I remember waking up after surgery hearing my daughter Brittney cry, I know I looked bad and scary but I knew I was alive and that was all that mattered! I had kept such a positive attitude going forward to the surgery, that the night before I barely thought of it, as I spent my way through Kohl's department store, yes I will be returning some of it since I went a little crazy, my childhood best friend Marlo called and thought I acted like tomorrow was just another day and couldn't hear any worry in my voice. Honestly I didn't have any until the hour prior to surgery especially as I held my children's hands and looked my husband Troy, my mom, dad, and grandma the tears just fled. Thank you God!  Your are the one who has answered my prayers!

I will not know if the surgery was a total success and if they removed all them tumor until my next MRI in Feb?  I will cross that bridge when the time comes.  Recovery was and is still slow.  I am very exhausted and nauseated.  Anesthetic and me are not friends.  I just sleep, hopefully one day I will feel as good as new.  The pathology report was in and the tumor was Benign they were right!  They said recovery could take up to SIX WEEKS! My only complaints remain nausea, and fatigue.  I HAVE NO PAIN! YEAH!

Rhonda with the help of Kira has held down the shop so wonderfully!  One day this week my sweet husband Troy escorted me to Village Inn, Yes Pancakes are my thing and I craved them.  We delivered lunch to Rhonda who I owe so much to.  I was so amazed by the shop.  I have to say I have never seen so many beautiful new products and oh those papers, I wanted to go crazy and start creating.  The shop is bursting with products, just in time for Christmas. I really haven't felt crafty only crappy and hope that will go away soon.  I hope to be 100% by Thanksgiving so I can enjoy our first HoneyBaked ham, stuffing and deviled eggs, I love my mom's eggs and stuffing, they're the best!  Turkey not so much, only with miracle whip on rye the day after.  I also hope to work our sale the day after Thanksgiving at the shop.  It's our biggest sale and I want to be there.  Not only is it our sale but my mom's birthday, I also would love to accompany her to Black Hawk and yeah that's the day we decorate and put up our tree.  Boy I  might have to stretch it into the weekend, this year.

Well Thanks Again to All. Your Prayers, Cards, Meals, Emails, Flowers, Gifts and Love are more than anyone could ask for.  Love You All,

Jeanna

Comments

[Donna Sehn]

Dear Jeanna-

God is SOOOOOO good! I had no idea that any of this was going on until I got the Crop Shop's e-mail. I am so glad to hear that you are doing better and that the tumor was benign. It will be wonderful to see you in the shop again. Wow, what a special Thanksgiving you will have this year. God bless you and your family!

Donna (the southern gal who you helped put together the "40 Fabulous Things about Stef")

[dnttaylor]

Jeanna, I am Tamee. I was one of your customers that anticipated your opening the store. I worked over there (7 years ago) I would get my lunch and spend it in front of your store staring at the brown paper that was in the windows. Waiting for the open sign. I was SOOOOOo excited to work by such a great store. My job has changed, but every time I get over in that area, I spend my paycheck and come in and visit. Your store is MY KIND OF STORE. I LOVE IT.

I am sorry to hear about your medical problems, but you are a strong persona and you will prevail. God has so much more work for you to do!!! Everyday get up and do a little bit more than yesterday, on your good days of course. Some days you need to drop back and charge your battery.

I will be praying for you!!!

Your Crop Shop's Loyal customer....
Tamee Taylor